I have been going to rehab for about 5 weeks now for a jacked-up knee. One more week and I should be fit as a fiddle or at least as fit as a person without a jacked-up knee. I have had to come to grips with the fact that I will never be able to wear 5 inch heel Manolo Blahnick’s ever again. Not that I ever did wear them but I had my dreams.
Hey, I have made due with a vast and glorious assortment of flip-flops for 45 years and I guess it will just have to stay that way.
Now, I have never slept for more than 4 hours a night since my mid-twenties. These days with all the healing that is going on I am in my beddy before any respectable 3 year old and up at dawn. I am actually always up at dawn but now I am dream spent and cranky from sleeping too much and up at dawn. There is a diff.
Here’s the thing.
As you may have heard already from my mentor the late great Bette Davis ; “Getting old is not for sissies.” And the alternative to aging may at times feel as though it would be welcome relief but seriously… nah.
Life is for the able and the lame alike. Sometimes you’re able. Sometimes you’re gimpin’ it. Gimpin’ it in every possible way. Physically, emotionally, financially, taking it slow one step at time while everyone else appears to be on high heat running a prosperity race. This bit of wisdom came to me this morning as I lay in my bed with my knees elevated holding up two bags of ice while I adjusted the ice pack I had stuffed into my jammies for my jacked-up back. (But that’s old news. My back is healed it just appreciates the ice.)
It’s a blessing to have perfect health and I am fixin’ to grab a bit of Grace soon. But I have learned a lot about myself while I have been limping along these last 2 months.
I am tougher. Stronger. More resilient. Crankier. Bitchier. And funnier than I have ever been in my previously un-jacked life.
I am more grateful now for all of the years I had of perfect health and worn out dancing shoes than I ever was when I actually had those things. Look, this too shall pass. It always does. This wisdom was hard won. I’m delighted I now own it. Dawn and all of your many delights. Hope to meet you again tomorrow. Grateful and blessed.
I am available for Readings if you need to talk with me. That’s something I can do with my shoes on or off!
*For all those in the Friday’s Child Circle of Prayer and for all those in need. We send… Love, Light and Oceans of Bliss for the Highest Good of All. And so it is!