Who Shall I Be Today?
I suppose the quote above can refer to any emotion unresolved. I have always been a far too emotional being for my own good. Maybe you can relate? I practice “Stoicism” but practice isn’t doing. And practice is not perfect even when we are doing. Walking the talk is one thing. Allowing the talk in your head to take you for a cross country drive is entirely another.
At this point in my life I try to keep the melt-downs and psyched-up’s to a grande seasonal affair.
I say “try.”
In truth, I make a decision everyday to be the person I really want to be. If I neglect certain aspects of my Spiritual Practice for too long then I do not have that choice. I then have the option of having a bad day or helping someone else to bad day.
When I was young I was not so much a person as a living, breathing, temperament.
I admit to going back to my used to be on occasion.
Am I proud of it? Nope. Do I own it? Absolutely! Do I say this a lot? Sure. Why not? Life and my bad attitude just gets under my not-tough-enuff skin sometimes and look out Honey! Thar she blows!
But like the old song says… feelings, nothing more than feelings. These feelings are an important direct link to our sense of security and depth of passion. They apprise us of who we are. If we respect them rather than bury them we can go easy and make the better choice.
I will always choose passion. Which flies in direct opposition to my Stoicism Practice I know. This practice however is my soul calling for harmony. An attempt at harmony really. I know better than to expect balance.
Should we be harder on ourselves? I dunno? I really do not.
I have always felt that as long as you are at heart a grateful, kind, considerate person you can never be truly defeated or perfectly wretched. No matter how you feel or appear to be in the moment.
And to this I say;
”No longer allow this thing that I am to bear ungraciously whatever is allotted for it in the present or lament over whatever is allotted for it in the future.”
Thank you Marcus Aurelius.
We send… Love, Light, and Oceans of Bliss for the Highest Good of All.
And so it is!