Well, yay me. I made it through the boxes. Found homes for the little treasures I decided to keep. And now, this house is a home. I have no idea why I am so neurotic but I have always had to have my house in order before I can function properly. K, maybe not function properly but good enough for R&B. I only have a few more housey decisions to make until it is a matter of upkeep. I’m good with upkeep. Upkeep is where I like to be. Just doing what needs doing and moving along to whatever else needs doing. Keeps me out of trouble and it makes me look busy. We love to look busy don’t we?
Here’s the thing about moving. When you move you are forced to face your past. When you move a lot you are forced to let go of the past. Recognition happens first. Letting go doesn’t stand a chance until you know what you want and why you need the change. It’s a process. All of the important stuff is.
It is the wiser person that will find a way to be at peace with change. I hope I am of the wiser. It’s a good club to be in. The wiser amongst us get that we only have so many moments in life. We make them count or they make us sorry.
I hadn’t unpacked all of my things in five years. After doing so I realize that much of was important to me five years ago doesn’t mean jack all now. I am happy to say I have changed. I am happier to say that change is possible at any age. Only the wealthy, the foolish, and those that simply do not care are entitled enough to never have to change.
I didn’t feel the need to change.
I was pretty perky and positive that what I had and where I was planted was terrific. Everything was fine. The only thing that wasn’t fine was that a sort of personal inertia had set in. Fine is fine for those of us that value that sort of thing. A part of me wanted more. And less.
What I need is what is. I finally want what is. It took many moments of isness along the way to achieve this. It took a great deal of willingness to be a beginner. To be ok with not knowing how or what to do next. It took flexibility.
Inflexibility in your body is a sign of aging.
Inflexibility in your spirit is a sign of old age.
Old age is for old people.
Don’t accept it.
Stay open to change.
Let go of things. All manner of things.
Attachment to stuff, ideas, people, a way of life, is an illusion. If you are unable to enjoy your life because of attachments you overvalue – you are living in the past. The past and the future being two grand illusions because we only have this moment.
I came to California in the Summer of 1970. I had a guitar in my hand, a few things in a suitcase, a heart full of music, and a head full of dreams. It was enough at the time. Life changed its tune and I changed with it. I’m a sucker for a pretty melody. Especially one I haven’t heard before. With any luck? Life will change itself upside down to bring you back to yourself. All you have to do is stay in the moment and let it happen.
Sending… Love, Light and Oceans of Bliss.