Dancing In Twilight
Carl von Clausewitz
Twilight. Half-light. Semi-darkness. Gloom. A period of gradual decline. Between dawn and sunrise. Between sunset and dusk. It is the illumination of Earth’s lower atmospheric realm when the Sun’s light is not directly visible because it is below the horizon.
There are three types of twilight. The darkest being astronomical twilight. The Blue Hour.
How often have you found yourself in the Blue Hour? In that opaque, blue-black velvet period between melancholy and reverie? Between the darkness and the light? We are at the beginning of a crystal bright new year. Not much has happened yet that we need to be ashamed of or glad about. Our spirits are either lifted or exhausted. That’s nothing new, is it?
I woke up today to one hundred shades of grey Ocean and Sky. The gelid, unforgiving rain was pounding at my window, begging to be let in. I was curled up in my blankie all warm and invulnerable on the other side of the plea. This is how it is when I feel when I am suppressing fear and anger. Safe with a wolf howling at the door. Suppression is a common coping mechanism. Not a terribly effective long term emotion regulation strategy. We do what we can in the moment. The struggle of dancing in the twilight of suppressed thought and emotion is real. The rebound effect of which is painful.
This is the stuff PTSD, OCD, and Borderline Personality Disorder are made of.
Accepting your emotions is the fastest route on the road to mental health and spirituality. Leave the rose-colored glasses and peace and love talk behind. Growing up, growing strong, thriving and being spiritually sound requires us to feel our feelings. Feel them. All of the them. The sunshine and the rain of them. The heaven and the hell. You can put them off for awhile. The more effective plan is to feel them and let them go.
Feel them. Every single inch of them. Don’t judge them. Feel them. And let them go. Letting them go does not mean getting rid of them. It means to leave them be. They are there. There like the chair you are sitting in. There like the cup of tea in your hand. Just there. They won’t overwhelm you if you accept them as they are.
As a spiritual warrior you are not giving up or giving in when you accept your emotions. You are not resigning yourself to feeling blue forever. You are simply letting go of the struggle. All emotions are temporary. The fun ones and the not so fun ones. They come and go. You may date one for awhile but you ain’t going to be getting married anytime soon. By the time you get around to saying “I do” the feeling is out the door as fast as a runaway bride. This is the nature of emotions.
It is important that we steer clear of emotionally invalidating people and environs. It’s too confusing and no one feels alive when they cannot breathe.
I hope this year we all learn more about how to be the person we need to be for ourselves. There are no bad feelings. Not really. Once we learn to accept them. Dance with them in the twilight for awhile. The sun will come out or go down as sure as Sunday.
It’s all good.
Sending Love, Light and Oceans of Bliss.