Rage & Disappointment
Deborah Ann Woll
I listen to a lot of music. I started this journey as a singer. I could always Read but it’s not like I knew what it was. That didn’t happen until I was 22 years old. Since then, in varying degrees, I have been earning a Reading. It just took awhile to figure out what the H was going on. Why I saw little movies above everyone’s head. Why I could smell colors and taste words. Why I could feel so much. Once it had name. Then it was just a matter of turning the movie off until I was actually an invited guest. See, what’s in your head is none of my business until you make it my business. If you knew me personally you would know that I do not enjoy random rudeness. Acting as an unsolicited audience in a persons heart and mind is rude.
I bring this subject up because knowing why you are here is why you are here.
Lose your why and you lose your way.
I accepted early on my “why.” I must do both to feel worthy of living. Even given that knowledge I know how easy it can be to lose yourself. Lose yourself to doubt, fear, undeserving humans and causes. We can do ourselves and others a lot of harm when we are unaligned with our purpose. It creates rage and disappointment. We all have the exculpatory and inculpatory evidence to prove these crimes against lovers and life.
The truth can break you.
A lie can keep you whole.
Fear prevents us from knowing the difference. These blind spots are a part of our Shadow Self. What we won’t look at about ourselves keep us running and clueless of the why. We repress our potential and drive it into the unconscious part of our mind. The problem is it wants to be known. The truth niggles and pulls and wages the wars within that keep us chained to our fear until we can break free.
It’s never too late to figure out your why. Five lifetimes, three careers, and a thousand day gigs later just to pay the rent is not necessarily going to buy you a clue. It’s like music. Certain music touches your soul and makes you feel alive. Other melodies will leave you cold and changing the channel on the radio.
The why for you is like the music for you.
It haunts you when you are away and makes your heart sing just thinking about it.
Sending Love, Light & Oceans of Bliss.